Unfortunately, Crohn's disease affects the rest of the body and causes tremendous inflammation, pain, arthritis, etc. I feel this in nearly every joint of my body, even with the Crohn's being improved. The greatest challenge with this, is the debilitating pain and weakness in both of my hands and wrists. Sadly, the job God has blessed me with for the past several years (and that I recently had to mostly give up), has aggravated it to the point that I am unable to do many of the basic things in life (and makes me even more grateful for my incredible husband and family).
My days and weeks include endless frustration and tears, as daily I fight to keep my chin up, while experiencing continual pain and numbness. The physical can so greatly affect the emotional and I have been fighting depression, anxiety, and anger. God is ever faithful and my hubby is ever loving and caring but there are days I struggle to carry on.
A couple years ago, a coworker told me about this thing called Prolozone therapy. It's natural and untraditional, so immediately my interest and curiosity was piqued. (My husband calls me a hippie... *insert eye roll*) But insurance doesn't cover anything nontraditional, so it was added to my someday dream list of an option that might help.
Well, someday is today. Next Tuesday the 28th, to be more precise. After much thought and prayer and discussion and counsel seeking, we have taken the dive and, first thing this morning, I scheduled the initial couple of appointments (there will be several over the course of a few months). I'm excited and anxious all at the same time. We're doing our best to budget and plan but it doesn't make sense on paper and ultimately we're trusting God to provide the money (He always does). I also have this deep trembling fear of the treatments not working. It's something I have to continually pray through and trust the Lord with.
I have watched God work and heal and provide countless times over the past decade. He has used the love and prayers of so very many people and I don't have enough days in my life to begin to express my gratitude. I do covet your prayers during this time, as we seek healing and restoration in my hands. I long for the day that I can cook, clean, ride my bike, hold babies, go kayaking, shoot guns, read a book, empty the dishwasher, fold laundry, bake cookies, decorate cupcakes, play football, and on and on the list goes, without experiencing excruciating pain and weakness.
Thank you so very much. Love and hugs and kisses to all of you.